You know how they say that God is faithful? That He gives you the strength to do what you need to? That He will never leave you nor forsake you?
Well, I don't believe it.Now - before you run screaming from this post, wondering who hacked Joanne's blog, gimme a few more paragraphs. Please?
For the past several days, I'd been feeling overwhelmed. I looked at my schedule for this week a few days ago, and it was all I could do to keep my breathing under control. Saturday? A soccer game at ten, a wedding at 2, and a pool party at 4. Sunday? Church in the morning, and ANOTHER pool party all that afternoon. Driving for a field trip Monday, errands Tuesday and Wednesday, TWO awards assemblies on Thursday, and half day of school Friday.
WHEN WAS I GOING TO GET ANYTHING DONE?
Seriously - what was God thinking when he put all that stuff in my life - during the kids' last week of school? That was supposed to be my last few days to enjoy the relative quiet of the house. To get some stuff done with out child interruption. To relax before the craziness of kids 24/7 hit.
Okay - I'll be straight with you. I never SAID these things out loud. Didn't even think them, to be honest. But I sure acted like I did.
Every time I stressed about my loaded schedule, I was doubting His faithfulness. Every time I rolled my eyes as another activity was added to my agenda, I was doubting His willingness to strengthen me for my tasks. And every time I grumbled about what I wouldn't be able to accomplish, I was doubting His plan for me this week. I was assuming He was gonna leave me hanging - forsake me.
Yes, there is an art to panic. And, I'm ashamed to say, it's one I have developed quite a talent for. But if I can trust in God, and remember it is His plan, not mine, that I need to follow, I can have peace instead.
Whether he lightens my load or not (which, by the way, he actually did for this week), I will accomplish EXACTLY what He wants me to, if I will only trust him and abandon the art of panic.
How easily do you slip into panic mode? Can you put actions behind the words you speak of trusting Him with everything in your life? How do you transfer your anxiety into trust?
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