It could be hormonal.
It could be because I'm tired.
Or it could be because the Lord is trying to break me--to make me see myself, and my sins, through the clarity of His Word and those who teach and preach it. And I might just be seeing it.
I hope it is the latter. But I really don't know, because I've felt this way before and the regret (I'm pretty sure that's all it was) passed and nothing changed. I don't want that to happen.
So I'm writing this out, for the world to see. So maybe, if it's just "that time of the month," I will still have it in black and white.
And I can reflect on it.
And I can confess it again.
And I can repent again.
And, eventually, I can see how far I have come, with His help.
For these sins, oh forgiving God, forgive me, pardon me, grant me atonement. And help me to truly repent from each of them.
Paving Rough Roads With God's Presence