Lord, if you gave me this writing gift, why am I so frustrated?But the children struggled together within her; and she said, “If all is well, why am I like this?”... Genesis 25:22
If my husband's health issues are in Your perfect plan, why is it so stressful and hard on all of us?
If You trusted me to raise my children, why do they lead me to tears and grey hairs?
If all is well, Lord, why am I like this?
Sometimes, it takes a very long time to get the answer to that question. Sometimes He gives me a small glimpse of His reasoning - through the blessings that come out in my trials, or my spiritual growth because of my difficulties. On occasion, it's my sin. Other times, I'm sure I won't find out this side of heaven.
But every once in a while, I hear an answer whispered in my ear. It's not always the same, but the essence is this: "It's not all about YOU, Jo."
God didn't put me here on earth to be happy and comfortable. I am not the center of the universe. His eternal plan includes a lot more than just my life. Sometimes, I am "like this" for the benefit of another, of the big picture.
And because I trust God, SOMETIMES, that has to be - should be - enough.
How hard is it for you to trust Him? Have you ever felt like Rebecca? Has God given you hints for why you are "like this?" Come join me at Living By Grace on Facebook and we can chat.
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